Sorry~~ emo take 2...

sorry for my blog...
i din upload anything for a long time..

I've being very busy wif my stupid and crazy school homework tis 2 months holiday..
aikz...

uhh.. i tired of Form 6 life here in Sibu...
i lost all my best friends that usually chat wif me, shared everything wif me...
either happy or sad...

bt they left me alone striving hard (almost dead) here.. in my own home town..
i don't really like the life here...
i am alone..
surrounded wif ppl that just try to make use on me.. i m juz the spare tyres for them.. when they don't need me, they will just kick me away as far as they cn... isolate me even...
i hate...
at the begining of the year,
my parents promise me to let me go overseas to further my studies...
let me to take the courses that i am interested in...

bt after my SPM results was released, they said..its beta for me to stay on studying form 6...
i knew that my results for my SPM is worst than what i expected,,, i myself din expect to get wad i really got... they blame me on nt serious in my studies...
day and nite, i ve striving whole day long.. i tried... i am serious.... may be thats nt my luck...
ok.. since they dun let me to go study in priv colleges.. i apply everything that i m interested and d ones which i m nt into it..... but luck is still nt at my side... i din get anything..
the only school which accept my application is SMK Methodist.. which means, i have to study form 6.. is that fate?

well, around 2 months studying form 6, i start get use to it.. get use to the fact that i am staying n my friends are leaving.. get use to the fact that i will be suffering here in my home town... watching my dreams getting far away from me.. and watching my friends had half of their dreams in their hands.. they are happy wif their studies and i m sure they will succeed in it..whereas i who have no choice to choose the path road that i wanted to go ...

nobody support my dreams.. my ambition... everyone seems to look down on me.. they think that it is impossible for me to succeed in my dreams.. of course now it was impossible.. i m nt studying the courses that cn lead me to my dreams..

even they dont let me to get into art stream in form 6.. SHIT.. i am going to die in SC Stream.. my results are worst like hell... is that what they want? watching me fail troughout my form 6 life and get a worst results in my STPM again??
OMG!!! i really hope tat i will nt me continue STPM next year..
as if i din learn anything through this whole year..
i was sad and miserable everytime i see my results...
i wish to have some friends saving me or guide me alone.. but no.. they are on their own.. sometime i ought to call them sellfish.. i noe that is cruel.. bt isn't that the way they treat me?
i wan my life to be cheerful back.. like before... i really want it back...
Sometimes i wanted to leave this town.. as far as possible.. i want to build my own futher myself... even if i failed.. i cn learn my lesson myself.. i am old enuff to think wad is good and bad for me.. i old enuff to think bout my futher..

bt seems that couldn't be.. something is blocking it.. haiz.. excuse me Mr. Something.. could u pls me let me go? PLEASEEEE..............