Pressure..+ stress...+ confused..+ = emo..

STPM exam... is it really as hard as wad i think? aikz..

i really dunno.. to me .. it is really tough...

i asked some of my seniors.. bt some of them said STPM is really hard.. bt some say no..

may be it is related to ur interest to the subjects or courses that u take..

of course the amount of effort that u put in oso matter..

bt i think interest effects more bah..

cz if u are nt interested in that particullar subjects, even u studied really hard for it..

the results that u obtained will differ a lot from the subjects that u really interested in..

RIGHT??

like me lo..

i dun actually interested in those science subjects..

or should i say I AM TOTALLY NOT INTERESTED!!!

instead, i am interested more in arts..

n my future dream is to be a interior or landskap designer..

bt i totally have no idea on why my parents oppose my opinion..

it makes me feel really sad + dissappointed + stress...

dun mention bout remembering, even understanding those scientific concepts will make me feel like hell..

i really take a hard time..

nt hours,

bt will be MONTHS..

even by nw, some lower six things i still cnt even understand it..

without understand it, it will be really hard to remember it..

btw, if we memorise it blindly without understand wad is going on,

u won't be able to answer the questions too..

for example.. maths..

remembering the formulas are easy...

bt wad use of memorise it without understand the topic?

do u think u cn answer it..

u don't even noe the usage of the formulas..

nt i didn't study..

i did..

bt i just can't..understand wad is going on..

i need long time..

i tried..

tried very hard to understand, to remember..

bt it was really tough for me..

n i really don't like this type of stressful life style..

isn't learning should be fun n interesting..?

bt why i feel learning is a very stressed and difficult thing?

or is it because i m learning subjects that i am nt interested in?

i really think that really matters the progress of one's learning process..

leaning something that u r nt interested in will make u will hard, and ur learning process will be affected..

indirectly the learning results will decrease too..

it is just the same concept that we usually faced in real life..

we cnt force someone to accept a thing that he or she don't like or nt interested in..

may be he or she will go through it smoothly at the first place..

bt it cnt be forever..

for some may be yes..

may be they change their mind that the subjects or courses that they initially nt interested in is actually isn't too bad for them too..

bt this phenomenon doesn't happen to every individual..

it really depends..

by the way, do u think one cn control one's future?

CAN YOU??

u cnt change one interest too..

may be u cn give advice..

bt nt ordering them to get or do wad u wan..

u r nt his or her brain..

y don't u try to stand by his or her place..

think wisely..

think if u r the one who is order by other ppl to actualize THEIR dream..

wad will u feel?

will u be happy?

or wad will be ur reaction?

everyone have his or her future dream..

shouldn't we support their dream?

as long as the dream that they aim for isn't anything that is immoral...

ISN'T it true?





************************************************************************************* exam week is coming soon.. and i m really stress bout it..

my parents are giving pressure on me again..

targets everywhere..

they target me to get at least 3.5 for my STPM next year..

aikz..

i m scare i cnt..

haiz.. why i m owes the one who think for other ppl..

cnt they try to think for me too?

think my emos..

think hw pressure i have..

if i complain to them bout my pressure,

they will say..

"u will noe n be grateful to us next time.. the decision we made for u will give u no harm..

instead.. ur future will be bright and ur life will be easier.."

or

"now of cz u will feel stress, pressured.. tired.. bt in future, after u have ur career, u will be happy and contented.. so it is worthful to suffer A BIT now...it is normal.."



OR

if i begged them to let me archieve my dream to be a designer... they will say..

"designer where gt bright future d?.. beside, designer need to think a lot of new and creative ideas only ppl will support ur designs.. if ur designs nt good, u are going to suffer..."



##well, my dream is nt to be an useless designer.. instead, i dream to be a professional designer..

i gt ideas.. which is somehow quite good(said by other ppl, include friends and some interior designers who help to draw out the design my mum's house..).. i wan to develop more on my design skills.. i wan to have my own brand.. i wan my sign to be internationally well-knowned..

i gt my big dream to succeed... i had be planning this dream before i entered my teenhood.. i noe wad my parents expect from me.. bt i m really nt interested in those science-related job..

OK, lets skip away the "interest or nt interest" topic.. lets look at the future that they like to mention on....



do u think i will have a bright future in science field which i need months to understand just a single formula or concept? or my future will be brighter if i proceed on studying my design courses and came out will profesional certs make my big dream come true?

which one do u think will be easier to implement?

my dream, my dream,

where r u now?

r we able to meet?

or we will only meet in my dream?

i don't want u to be just a dream..

i wan u to be in my reality life..

cn u?

or cn I?